At Cameron's 4 month check up the pediatrician suggested we start letting Cameron "cry it out" and go to sleep on his own. She was surprised I was holding him every day for him to take naps! Well, I talked to Jeremy about it when he came home from work and we decided to start that night. We laid him down and after 1 minute of him screaming and crying I couldn't take it...I caved and started to think of excuses. I told Jeremy we couldn't start it tonight because "we didn't know what we were doing...maybe we should wait because the cousins are all coming over to sleep in a few days and we don't want to have to worry about doing this while they are here...we didn't give him any warning..." But the one that worked was "the poor guy got shots today and isn't feeling good, we can't torture him with this too!" I knew even if we didn't start that night, inevitably we would have to start sometime. We ended up starting the whole "cry it out" thing last Sunday. It has been one week and Cameron is sleeping like a champ! He is such a good boy and a fast learner. He hated the idea at first and so did I. He cried the first night for 40 minutes...I wanted to cry too, I felt so bad I was scared that we didn't know what we were doing. I started to question the decision but more so because we really didn't know what we were doing...I asked Jeremy "can we go in and at least let him know we are here? Can we give him a binki? Are we supposed to never go in the room?" I started to panic, I didn't want to un-do what we had started and create more of a problem for ourselves. So I began calling friends, the first 2 I tried weren't home...I called another friend that said she really didn't have to do this with her kids because they naturally slept on their own. Really?! So I called my sister Margo, I knew she did this with Lindsie and would know something about it even if it was 10 years ago. Meanwhile, Cameron is still screaming bloody murder and I feel so horrible I want to call DCFS on myself! Thank heavens Margo answered her phone and gave me some advice and information. She told me she used the Ferber method and I quickly looked it up online. I read about the method for less than 30 seconds. All I needed to know I read in the first paragraph...it said something about going in and "comforting" your child and "soothing them by letting them know you are still here." I immediately went into his room and rubbed his head and told him I was here and loved him. I might have cheated because I gave him a binki, but he immediately stopped crying and fell asleep right after that! The next day he took 3 naps and went down without crying once! The next few days were off and on crying, but it never lasted more than 1 minute. We have continued to wrap him up in his straight jacket because if we don't he moves his arms all around and wakes himself up. He has turned into Houdini lately, every time I go in to get him after he wakes up he has managed to escape out of his straight jacket. I really have no idea how he does this...there are several velcro straps and he is wrapped very secure! He seems so proud of himself that he can get his arms out and have some freedom. I have felt so much love this week for Cameron and I didn't think I could possible love him any more! I am soooo grateful for him and the joy he brings to my life. He is such a special spirit and is so smart!
I took Cameron to the movie Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs last night with my mom, Michele, Janessa & Spencer (my dad and Jeremy went to the priesthood meeting). I thought I was going to have to stand to the side or in the back and hold him because he would be fussy, but instead he watched the whole movie! He was glued to it. He sat in my lap and played with his hands while he just stared at the screen. I had more fun watching him than the movie, his eyes would get big and he would smile. I was worried that he would be too stimulated to go to bed, since he stayed awake through the whole movie and it was 8 when we got home. But he surprised me again and went right to sleep. Maybe it wore him out :)